| Will not pull him into mind games.
Will not.
Arguments last night.
You're going to leave me? You're not going to leave me?
(Worst) Your going to want to leave me but you won't?
Arguements.
At his house today, left in the middle of us sitting quietly and studying.
Not feeling good.
Been sick.
Got home, texted him that I'm sick.
I want to call and apologize for leaving, but its not good to do.
Thats weird and clingy, to leave and then frantically call.
Will ask him later to come over and sit with me.
Later tonight after my fears and shakes have moved on.
so tired.
he came over.
He did not understand why I had treated him so poorly.
Just left without saying anything.
Left after assuring him I would not.
Imagine being in love with someone who can get up and walk out on you at the tap of a button.
He was super concerned and confused.
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| There is a lot going on in my mind,
and I like it.
Friday: work, nap, mall?, atlantic?, Yoga, piercing, food, play, night club.
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| April is
FAIL...
boo.
can't decide if i wanna be
dead to the world or
Superwomen
fucking teaching. |
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| have not updated in a while.
The beat goes on.
Student teaching,
chemistry,
Anatomy,
Boyfriend
friends
Travel
Parties
Homework
Labs
gym?
clothing?
personal training?
cigarettes?
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| Monday i went to class from 9:55 to 10:45 and then to work from 11:30 to 3 and then back to class from 4:30 to 6.
Today I went to work from 9:45 to 1, class from 2 to 7:35.
I'm tired.
Just did my first homework of the term. Lame.
Sunday is my mile swim race.
I don't think mike is coming anymore, it's his 3 day break and he wants to go away for it.
Life happens.
I don't blame him.
Parents are gone for the week. Party? ha. Sleep... |
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