| call of duty commercial comes on with Eminem in the background.
makes me think of him. |
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| Omg I am so annoying.
Sitting at a dinner table with people and he starts talking.
I quietly snapped at him.
"So how should we solve this? Do you want to break up? is that your solution?"
I posted on a smile and turned to see what else was happening at the table.
I assure you that night had some hysterical crying later.
Unfortunately, it was me breaking down at a bar with 20 kids i go to school with.
and then stumbling through the streets of manhattan screaming things.
followed by binge eating and a sad train ride |
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| We have no idea whats going to happen down the line.
I'm okay with that.
I don't know if I'm okay that the success of his career is more important than the relationship to him.
This fact makes it okay that we have no steady plans set in stone for our entire lives.
We want really different things,
but he assured me his next job will be in New York,
he still has plans to drag me out of the doghouse and to live in other places in the world with him. |
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| i figured out being in a long term relationship is hard.
being in a long term relationship that is functional, where both people like each other, where they can still laugh bullshit and share things after a year and a half, and there is an open honest flow, (especially when their is no jealousy and both people can do what they, go home with who they want, etc, hence there is complete honesty) is really something very special.
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i miss seeing his website checking mine.
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| So lets sum up my life. positive.
Mike is being great. he was mad, but he'll be okay.
Man, at the risk of sounding obnoxious, i love him.
Friday;
X- get medical forms in,
X- go for chemistry help,
X- Cousins housewarming/birthday party at night.
X- Mall?
- Study anatomy for hour
Saturday;
X- Call george, call Alex, call Becky Happy Birthday!!
X- Shopping therapy!!
X- Mikes cousins birthday?, If im invited, Or Alex's birthday.
Sunday;
X- Call Kaity, happy birthday!
- Anatomy study
- Chemistry review
- Make spring schedule up
X- Work on submitting Independent study project
I think I'm missing things there.
will fill them in.
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EDIT:
as we can see
Anatomy, chemistry and schedule are hanging over my head.
Things to be done other wise mike takes away my presents on Tuesday:
- 4 hours of tutoring per week of Chem and Anatomy
- Organize independent study
- Get exempt from swim and speech class
- Every question in chem homework completely filled and done CORRECTLY
And THEY ARE GREAT PRESENTS
i refuse to loose. |
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